The ways I am insane are truly incredible.
I just found myself, the other day, rushing through getting ready after a shower so that I could go “get stuff done” so that I could THEN relax and enjoy my life. Instead of slowing down in that moment and enjoying the fresh feeling after a shower, the smooth lotion on my skin, the chance to breathe for a moment.
Lunacy. Utter lunacy.
But we live life that way, don’t we? Keeping happiness and serenity just around the corner. Trying to achieve things, finish things, in order to relax and be at peace. But by then we are so wound up that we can’t really enjoy relaxing. So we just get one more thing done. And then one more…And so the cycle continues.
Remember the classic song, “I’m in a hurry to get things done, and I rush and rush until life’s no fun”? I feel like that becomes my mantra every now and then. Until I remember to slow down. To take that moment to notice the hummingbird beating it’s wings furiously and effortlessly at the same time. To savor the food on my tongue, the layers of flavor that intersect and overlap. To feel the ground underneath my feet, sturdy and solid, my foot molding to its determined pathway.
Take a moment. Savor. Feel.
Even writing this, I am noticing I use more detailed language when I am in the place of slowing down. It’s because time seems to expand here. There are more options, more opportunities, more creativity.
In third grade, I was taking a math test and I was freaking out because it was timed. I was so focused on the time constriction that I began to feel constricted myself. I panicked and got paralyzed – and I made a lot of mistakes. My teacher noticed and said to me the next time, “Take your time. There is no rush.” Somehow, I followed her advice. I knew intuitively what she meant. I focused on the expansive feeling of time, and I felt it in my body. I calmly went through the test, even having fun with it. I remember smiling, noticing the difference in feeling. And I aced the test.
Both tests were one minute long.
It isn’t about how much time you have, or what you do with it. It is how you approach time that matters. You can approach it as one minute being barely any time at all – rush, rush, rush. Or approach it as “a whole minute?!” Wow!” You can actually do a lot of things in a minute, if you think about it.
So, if you are going to hurry about anything, hurry up and slow down already!